Let me inform you of someone else's feelings other than yours:
Do you think I like going more than 10 days without seeing you?
Do you think it doesn't bother me to not hear from you?
Do you think just because I'm independent, I don't need you?
Do you think just because you don't see me everyday I don't matter?
No. It's not okay for you to walk out on my life. It's not okay to have no one. 
I already don't have a dad, what's another parent, right? It's everything to me. You're supposed to be everything I'm missing. But all you do is add to what I don't have. 
How do you think I feel knowing I'm essentially alone. Because I'm only convenient for you, when you want me to be. This is supposed to be a 24/7 job. Not when it makes you look good. 
You make me sick.

Semper Ad Meliora.

I've had such a productive Spring Break, I couldn't be happier. 
I feel much better about myself, like a pressure's been lifted. 
I've spent the bulk of it with family, and I couldn't be happier. It was a much needed alone time.
I miss everybody though. It's okay though, they've been doing their own thing.. which is alright, I guess. 
Anyway,  I'm so excited for my birthday. I don't even care about getting a car or whatever. 
I'm fully aware I won't get one right away or even my license. My mom hasn't paid for Joshua's Law yet, therefore I haven't gotten around to it. Plus, there's just too many other things going on right now, that Joshua's Law seems so minuscule. I'm not ready to drive yet anyway, I haven't practiced in months. I'm in no rush. BACK TO MY BIRTHDAY :D :D :D
I'm gonna have a giant slip and slide :) And hopefully me and Bo's family will go the lake that weekend too! It's just going to be a lot of fun. 
And then prom is the week before my birthday! I'm kinda excited about that, mainly just because I love to dress up and the Waffle House afterwards :)
and 4 days after my birthday, Brooke finds out if she's having a boy or girl. 
I'm so happy for her.



Always Towards Better Things<3

yah yah yah.

Tomorrow is A.J Kilcrease's birthday. I told him I wouldn't forget.
I love my bunny with all of my heart, no joke. He puts such a big smile on my face. 
I can't wait for mine and Bo's one year. I'm so happy I've spent such a long time with an amazing person as him. He's everything I could ask for and more. We have differences and argue like we're married... but I wouldn't want it any other way. This past year feels like it's been eternity yet I feel like just yesterday we were going to see The Last Song<3 I'm such a goober when I start talking about him. I'll stop now.




This year has definitely been one of the hardest and best years of my life. I'm blessed that God has given me such amazing people in my life and people to learn from. I couldn't be more thankful for the ones who have stayed true to me and have made an impact on my life. They know who they are. 

always the same.

I've been working my butt off in school. It feel so great. I'm finally feeling confident in Chemistry and Math.All I need now is a jump start on my Lit. essay. I've been super exhausted though. :/

I had the best night with Bo tonight. It was the best we've had in awhile. We went and saved his dogs, came home and ate dinner. And after dinner our whole family decides to help us practice our dancing for prom in the kitchen. I don't think any of us have all laughed so hard. 6 people slow dancing, and twirling and dipping each other all to the song "Fever". 
After we practiced dancing, everyone went outside. Me and Bo attempted to play tennis in the street and everyone else played baseball in the yard. By the time it got dark I had laughing and running cramps. My bunny was in the pin outside playing in the grass and he was laying out like he was tanning, it was so cute. 


I wish I was prettier


It's the start of summer, and I'm excited.  :)

Day 3. A picture of the cast from your favorite show.

I don't have a favorite show, so instead I'm gonna do: Day 4. A picture of your favorite night.

I don't have a picture of my favorite night, but it was at Windy Gap. Actually, every night was my favorite night. I think Hill-Billy night was my favorite. It was so much fun and I was completely careless, not worried about what anything thought. I miss that feeling, truly. 

I can't wait for Spring Break. I REALLY hope I can go to Tampa. I need to get away for just a weekend. Plus I miss my Casey and her sweet fiancée. 

I've done a whole lot of nothing today. Except, finish my chemistry project.  

Day 2. A picture of you and the person you have been closest with the longest

I'm so bad at keeping up with these, blah.
Katie Lynn Storm Lewis, definitely. 3 years now. She knows me like the back of her hand. We get tired and annoyed of each other but no matter what in 5 seconds we're back to laughing with each other.  She understands me and backs me up 100%. We'll always be bestfriends, no doubt about it. Every weekend together goes a long way, that's for sure. 
:)

Hm.

I really don't know how I feel about going to Howard anymore. I really think homeschooling would be better for me right now. The only things holding me back are; I won't have a graduation, and that's a big deal. Ever since the first day of Freshmen year that's all I've been looking forward to. And if I'm having such a hard time now socially, when I want to become a hair dresser it's going to be a lot harder, since instead of facing my problems, I ran from them. 
I'm trying hard to be nicer, but everyone has these fixed opinions that I'm a b-word and I'm always in a bad mood, yet these are the people who never tried to get to know me. I'm almost never in a bad mood. I hate how if you're a girl, and you're not extremely hyper, ditzy, and always laughing means you're a b-word and in a bad mood. Actually, I am happy, but I'm not going to broadcast this all over the classroom and hallway. And if I don't think somethings funny; I won't laugh. Simple as that. I hate these stereotypes Howard has built for people.
Blah, I don't like highschool. I'm hoping this is just Sophomore year, and things will get better Junior year, if not.. I'll probably do dual enrollment at CGTC, and hopefully get a head start on College.